(DISCLAIMER: THIS POST IS MY PERSONAL STRUGGLE. I WANTED TO SHARE IT BECAUSE I THINK IT IS IMPORTANT TO BE HONEST ABOUT DOUBT, AND HAVE THE FREEDOM AND SECURITY TO QUESTION FAITH OPENLY. IT SHOULD BE A TOPIC OF CONVERSATION. WITHOUT QUESTIONING WHAT WE BELIEVE, HOW CAN WE TRULY BELIEVE IT? THESE VIEWS ARE MY OWN AND DO NOT NECESSARILY REFLECT THE VIEWS OF OTHER REVOLUTION STAFFERS. I HOPE TO EXPLORE MORE ON THIS IN THE FUTURE. -BEN)
Wrestling with Faith
Losing it, or at least doubting and questioning it, is a hard thing to do. I’m not sure how to deal with it. I want to explore it, but the more I do, the more frustrated I get. I want to try and write about it, but I think I am nervous about doing that too. What if I have been wrong all this time and there’s nothing to believe in?
It is all in our own power as people to be strong. I love the social responsibility of the liberal church, but I think to myself, why do I have to give credit to God or Jesus for this inspiration? Why can’t it just be me seeing what needs to be done and doing my best to make sure it gets done? Why do I have to say, “Oh I’m worthless without God,” rather than embracing that fact that I did something good?
I don’t think I buy into the concept of original sin either. Come on, we are all shitty people and can’t do anything on our own worthwhile, because we are flawed? We are being punished because a couple (whose origins are sketchy at best) desired to know more and made a mistake? Since when is curiosity a punishable offense? So bad of an offense in fact, that all of mankind for eternity should pay the price for it? Come on. If this God is real and all that we say He is, why would He create a being that couldn’t be with Him with out a buffer to cover the door fee, if the entire purpose of creation was to relieve his loneliness? It seems like an all powerful Omnipotent being could do a little better.
I know the argument: “God gives us free will so that we have the choice, and choosing is what makes it ultimately an act of love to follow God.”
I think that maybe we use the excuse of freewill to explain why we have impulses that seem to go against our perception of “God’s will”. We use it as a scapegoat. I do things that are good or not good because I have an idea of how my actions affect the world around me, not because God is “convicting my heart.”
The Bible is the cornerstone of the Christian faith. Without it, there is no Christianity, like it or not. You can argue that it is not important to you and that you (despite being a Christian) don’t worry too much about the Bible. But the fact remains: no Bible, no Christian faith. Without it there would be no record of the faith outside of stories passed orally down through time, which is what they were for a few hundred years until they were written down. Christ’s life, death and resurrection were all accounted for in the bible.
But how can we trust the Bible? As mentioned above, it is a written form of an oral tradition. That’s real reliable, especially if you want to base a dogma of moral correctness on it. Hell, less then 50 years after the death of the King of Rock and Roll (Elvis), first person accounts (the cooks) can’t agree on the recipe for the royal fried chicken. How can we trust stories passed down over hundreds of years to be fact, without any hyperbole? It just doesn’t jive.
Have you ever doubted your faith? do you have no faith in religion? why not? why do you? i’m intrested to hear what other people think about this. please comment and lets have us a discussion.